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i sit in the testing area for orientation, and only one thing passes through my mind... " i wonder that my cerebral functions have not ceased out of sheer, outright boredom..." i drew a little dragon on my arm... I DOODLE ON MYSELF BECAUSE OF AN ATTACK OF THE HATRED OF STUPID TESTING THINGS!!! grrr...argh...
we really must think of a new title for this coolition thing, since it is not really an organization to get me bedded, but really a group of people who are insanely tied to their desire to see me happily dated... i can do without the bedding, really, i'll just sleep on the floor :)

to all CTGSL members :)

dear devoted members and their dogs,

whee!

that is all,
me

alert to all members of the coolition

so yeah, going hiking with a guy from work today *eeep! a human male who doen't think of me as a fellow guy!* and, well, he's cute, i mean, blond, long hair, nice smile ( rather funny laugh, he sounds quite a bit like scooby-doo... i find i'm starting to enjoy making him giggle) glasses, vegiatarian (i don't know how in the world that's going to work out, i mean, i'm not like a feckin' hyena, but i do like the occasional tuna fish sandwich )... and i dunno, everything is just speculation at this point, since i don't even know if he likes me that way... herm, well, the good thing is, that since i've worked with charlie for a while now, and gotten used to him a little more, i'm not as nervous as i usually am at the prospect of hanging out with someone i don't know really well... especially in a date-type situation... not to say that i'm not nervous, cause that just wouldn't be me in a social situation... which is another thing about charlie, he's aparently a party animal, and i reeeeeaaaaalllllyy don't do parties... *sigh* i could start, i guess, but right now, the massive social diffrences between us is the major hurdle, but it's a bridge i'll have to go pyro-ninja on later... there's also this whole relationship thing too, he's looking for one (so i'm told) and i'm still a wary about them, got burned last time... and i'm a space freak... hopefully he's not going to run screaming for the hills when he gets to know me better (short trip, good thing about the mountians) hahaha, this blog makes me sound like a 14 year old shrinking violet... if it turns out bad, i won't mention it, if it turns out good... well *grins wickedly* you guys know i don't kiss and tell... :)

oh, the shame

i now have a LiveJournal *weeps openly at this admission of betrayal of the blog* but i'm mostly going to be useing it to post stories and poems and the like, anyone who wants can visit it, i don't mind, just mind your manners, those LJ freaks can get quite nasty :)

http://www.livejournal.com/users/silberfeuer/

^this would be me^

just stuff

thanks to jon for making me wade through a list of over 350 books, i have discovered that i have read (or partialy read, and i rarely do not finish a book) 57 out of 359 books... some of those i love, some i really-wish-i-hadn't-read-and-could-i-please-have-those-hours-of-my-life-back? i'm currently reading Ella Enchanted by some chick, The Silver Chair by C.S. Lewis, and The Occult [a history] by some guy i can't remember at the moment and can't be bothered to go upstairs and check on, throw in 2 mangas that i just HAD to get (eighth Saiyuki! rapture! and a RuroKen), and you have the weekly dose of literature that i allow myself... if i had an ounce less willpower, i would be laying on my bed....or on the couch....or outside on a rock next to the waterfall.... reading until my little brain rots... i probably need to read a few more of the classics then i have, but since so many of them are required reading in english classes, (we have to read Silk and Steel or something like that for freshmen stuff at ASU, luckily, it's about a swords master) i feel i can get away with not reading them on my own... even if i did like wuthering heights and i ADORED beowulf...
on a funnier note, yesterday, while attempting to practice my handstands some more, i fell on my head, now you know why i'm like this...

...owwie...

haha, so dad and i are building these series of fences around the nicest of the trees in the goat pen (which means he drives the stakes, i stack the walls and get paid for it) and i decide today that the only reason i wasn't making more use of the logs taht he has so nicely felled for me is that i have this vague misconception that i can't lift them, they being too heavy... so i tired today... and i managed to get most of them moved and in place by a tedious process of flipping them end over end the entire into the right place and then lifting them into their settings... i think i may have pulled something... but who cares... i am king of the world!!! haaha

wheee!!!

i love Lethal Weapon! all of them! yay! Riggs and Roger and that kick-ass chick he finally hooks up with and Jet Li in the fourth one! wheeeee!!!!

i got a letter form my beloved older/twin sister yesterday, and i held it to my chest and cried like a baby until our little sister came into my room and dog-piled me... it never bothered me when i was little that Nome was teh odd man out n our family, becasue mum and dad had each other, and Han and I have each other, but Nome is just Nome, by herself, no twin, no partner, and as i've gotten older, i realize that it's probably been kinda lonely for her... and now she doesn't know what to do with me since Han is going to be gone for another month and a half... i need to be a better older sibling for the kid... *sigh*
i went to sleep last night with Hannah's letter underneath my pillow...

for all those who awiat this info...

Eckerd, Hannah G.
4 Platoon Warriors
B Company, 2D Battalion, 28th Infantry Regiment
Fort Jackson, SC
29207

herm...

have you ever noticed that anyone who holds a card outside of it's envelope always holds it with the card in between the sealing flap of the envelope and the rest of the envelope? is it something they teach us at birth? or is it just natural to us: you go into hallmark, you pick out a card, you find the matching envelope, you place the card inside the flap of the envelope, you walk to the checkout counter, you pay for your card, you leave... i'm not sure this doesn't happen in other countries, but in every hallmark store on the United States, actually, in every store that sells cards and envelopes at all, you can see this absurd behavior taking place... it makes one wonder, doesn't it? i even noticed that i do it, which is what started this rant in the first place... i wonder what other things that everyone does automatically (outside of bodily functions) ah-ha! i notice that people with glasses look over the top of them when they wish to make a point, no matter what size they are... i don't understand that one either, i mean, it's not like it improves your vision, but it is nonetheless something that bespecled people do... weird...

argh..technology...

the phone is being bitchy... i can't get the extra minutes i bought for it to add themselves on like good little minutes... and yes, i now have a phone on me at all times... feel free to call if you want to see me jump six feet in the air becasue i've forgotten i have it in my pocket and it's on vibrate (scares me shitless everytime) hahahha.... just realized no one knows my number...hahhaha... *mutters* bitches... *cackles wildly*
in a foul mood cause i just did something stupid and told someone i shouldn't have bothered about my problems... now i have to think of a way to put them off so that they don't interogate me about the fact that i'm a feckin' psycho... damn *punches self in head* Han is gone for four days, and already i throw myself face first in a hole.....

woe for my beautiful Hana'li

she is gone, my beloved twin-sister is gone to basic training for a whole two and a half months... i miss her so much already, not because she's only been gone two days, but because she's been gone only two of all the days that make up the whole 8-11 week stay in south carolina... this is the longest we've been apart since the womb and it hurts so much... two and a half months is too long, i want her to come home...
i will be posting her letters (with directed censoring) as they come, and anyone who wants to talk to her as well, i will post her address when i get it...
the night before she left to go to knoxville for her last round of meps, i held her until she feel asleep, knowing it would be the last time i would see the one person i've always counted on my whole friggin' life for a very long time...
i'll be alright once she's been gone a few more days -more of my disfunctional time-line awareness- but for now i miss her so very very very much... i watched star wars today with our little sister and cried

oh yeah

and i was quite serious about the world domination thing... you have been warned...

passions

*sigh*
one of my, until now, most secret loves has been formal english. i love thees and thous, therefores and felicitations... i love saying things that sound pretty and lyrical, i love playing with my language like i play with my instruments... ah... it is so lovely to meet someone else that shares that, but until then i try to keep it under wraps, speaking the lingo of my high school halls and dumbing up my english papers so that i can spell what i mean to say well enough for it to be understood... i can say what it is in words that some call archaic, but, alas, i cannot often write it in the same strain, i must be content with words close enough to convey the meaning but not, oh, not the flavor of the phrase... sigh, so sad a life for a romantic :) that is my main driving force behind wanting to learn japanese and arabic, such pretty tounges, and written in such gorgeous script...
*drat*