frustration

argh!
this is NOT working... i am all for a bit of going out agian, i guess, but i just can't seem to get it togather... i mean, i decide i've found someone to develop a crush on, i give it an honest go for a few days, and then forget about it entirely...then it's like "oh!, right, sorry, sorry, i am supposed to like you!" *gak* for a teenager, i sure have an absent minded sexuality... how am i supposed to function in this world if i am not at least adjusted to the idea of the perfect partner? well, having no sex drive gives me plently of time for other things... i really need to get it togather here... i'm running out of time... i have only given my self a few more years with which to concentrate on things of human origin, then i'm going all reclusive until i bust outta here in the most galactic way imaginable...