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SO TIRED!!! mike showed up at work yesterday, wanting to do end of the month stuff, and of course that means that we can't do our normal close stuff like we usually do, but instead we have to wait to do it all AT CLOSE... what a silly thing... doing close stuff at close... grrr... but it did give me time with charlie, who was trying to fax in his loan stuff... (hahaha, didn't actually end up working, he had to go to staples and do it or something like that) i ended up going to bed at like, midnight, and then having mum wake me up at 6:50 this morning to talk about whatever (was sooo not concious) and then had to go take a latin placement test... the story was abotu some kid who had the devil do his homework or somehting... it was really weird...
about this charlie person... herm... what can i say? i feel weird writing about it, then i realize that none of you people have any idea who i'm talking about... and plus writing about it kinda makes it sound like some random retarded high school thing, though now that i'm in college (WHEEE!!! go me! *dances*), i'm surprised at how much the social stuff doesn't seem to show any sign of change... i dunno if i can call him a boyfriend yet, not quite sure if he wants to keep me... though i feel the insane urge to cook for him... *twitch* *slaps self* *shakes head* gah... glad i caught myself in time :) gak... afraid of sounding too clingy, something i've actually never been accused of... too distant, yes... i just don't want to feel like i'm imposing myself on someone's life... though i suppose if i date them i shouldn't since that is part of the deal, i'm there when they call, after all... i just feel so selfish! which i suppose can be just as much of a problem... hermmm... i need to be a little more careful with this thing then i've been with relationships in the past... ergh... i feel like i should have a warning label tattooed on my forehead and my own issuable handbook... I'M SO BAD AT THIS!!! *goes off to sulk*